If I am not careful, I can miss recognizing when the Lord gives me the desires of my heart. Many times, the desire is just to rest! Sometimes I can get so busy doing so much that I forget to just take time to rest. I forget it is okay to just sit down and read a good book. I forget it is okay to sit on the sofa and watch a good who dun it while eating potato chips and drinking a tall glass of iced peach tea. It was just a few months ago that I realized I could silence my phone any time that I wanted to. And it is okay to put my phone in the do not disturb mode in the middle of the day.
This past year, I have made three geographical moves, and I made the mistake of thinking that it would not take too much time or effort. I had to be honest with myself and admit that I am not as young as I once was, which means I do not have the stamina that I once had. Reality caused me to accept help when I wanted to say, “That’s okay, I’ve got this!” My reality became not rushing but allowing myself more time to get things done. It is difficult for a person, like me, who likes things to be a certain way and everything in place to surrender to what is instead of what was!
They say with age comes wisdom. I sure do hope so. Wisdom has a voice and sometimes she can speak loudly and sometimes in a whisper. The thing is that she speaks. Wisdom says it is okay to not pattern your life after someone else’s. Wisdom says you are unique, and you are to do those things that are purposed for you. Do not compare yourself to others. It is not wise to do so.
We have finally settled in our home, and hopefully this will be our last move. As I walk from room to room, I thank God for the memories. As I look around, I see so many blessings, many of which were desires of my heart. I see the beautiful antique teacups and cake plate that a friend found in Washington, DC at a consignment shop. I see the awards that I received for my poetry and short stories. And these are just a few things. I see the photos of my husband and children and grandchildren, and it warms my heart. I can honestly say that God is faithful! As I delight in the Lord, He has and continues to give me the desires of my heart!